Never Ever Dull
With every conversation, I always seem to end with "Never a dull moment"....our lives are rich, complex, and beautiful stories. Join me in laughing about everyday things and appreciating life-bumpy roads and all.
New day Hot coffee Start computer Google news Website appears Perplexed thoughts Quickly delete Move on Next day Hot coffee Start computer Google news Website appears Mind wonders Why It’s There Call husband Rushes home At table Sit down Sideways glances Wringing hands “I’m exploring” Brain swirls Room spinning Sick stomach Stilted conversation Lingering questions Veil lifting False honesty Quickly exits Left alone At table Grabbing chair Holding on To What I Really Don’t know Weeks pass Months pass Awkward holidays Holding on Counselor appointments Hiding out Not sharing So hurtful Can’t tell Don’t Want Anyone To Know This truth Him: Strong Christian Church leader Promise Keeper Discipled men Family groups Men’s studies Proud father All lies Façade built Everyone clueless Public image Meant everything Says he Knew I Was easy To deceive Trying reconciliation More counseling Building trust Sharing more Peeling layers Pouring out Digging deep Spiritual renewal Raw emotions Seeking hope More revealed But My Gut Tells Me It’s Not Everything Shaky hands Take paper Call number Of Steve Investigator suggested By attorney Who had An inkling But I Didn’t Want To Go That Route Send children To friend Steve comes Takes computers I wait For results Pleading with God to Be with Me Steve calls So Much Worse Than Ever Imagined What’s next? Dig deeper Ask God For Help His guidance His leading Don’t Want To Face Failure Papers filed Standing alone In courtroom Knowing this Was The Only Answer Step outside Breathe in Breathe out Closer to God Knowing He’s With Me And Feels This Gut Wrenching Ache Questions rush Parenting four? All alone? Financially stable? What will People think? Days, weeks, Months, years So different Stronger, confident Knowing God Never left Me And He Remains By My Side
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Pam Kavanaugh
5/21/2020 11:09:30 pm
Love you my friend. Think of you often. You are an amazing woman. 💜
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11/11/2022 10:30:02 pm
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AuthorFun-loving mom to 4 kids and 1 big puppy. Fifth grade teacher of amazing little people who have never ending things to share with me. Love to discuss Jesus, diy projects, and life. Trying to keep it simple: Love Jesus, love people. Archives
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